 Divest from Whiteness; Acrylic on Paper 48" x 62". June 16, 2020 I made this painting after I visited the CHOP (Capitol Hill Occupied Protest) and was incredibly inspired by the art made by the protesters and the particular moment that we are currently going through. I feel like there is light coming in and our country is going through a shift. Change feels possible. This painting is the third of several large acrylic paintings I have done on paper lately. They are meant to be fast and spontaneous. A real departure from my oil paintings which I spend weeks on. This one is 48" x 62" and took me about 5 hours. I was thinking of my white ancestors who settled in the Oregon Territory in the mid 1800's The people in the painting are based on this family photo that was taken on Broadway - in Seattle ( just up the block from CHOP) in 1896:  The two men seated are my great great grandfather and his father, who moved to and settled in the Oregon Territory in the 1850s. Black Exclusion laws were the law of the land in Oregon, starting when it was a territory into the 1920's. My ancestors settled and prospered in Oregon 160 years ago because they could. Slavery was illegal in Oregon, but black people were forbidden from moving there. (Incidently, I never learned about any of that in school in Oregon, which is a problem.) They were all very religious christians, and I have no evidence that they were racist. But, as far as I know, they were completely removed and silent about the brutality suffered by black people. And that silence was passed down through the generations. I have lived much of my life in the same way. Living in the Pacific Northwest, I can easily avoid dealing with the pain suffered by such a large part of our population. My whole life has been built around whiteness, and the comfort that being a white woman affords me. That makes me feel uncomfortable, but at this moment, I want to lean into that discomfort as much as I can. I think that is where change and growth can begin. To me, Divesting from Whiteness means rejecting a culture that insulates and protects white people from the racism and brutality that is suffered by people of color. I have a lot learn and unpack, and I am not even sure how to do it, but I think this is a start. I will not be alone and I will keep my eyes, ears and heart open for the helpers and the healers. I plan to paint more about this. They will probably be big, fast, imperfect paintings like this one.  Detail: Divest from Whiteness - Acrylic on Paper
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I finished this painting a couple of weeks ago. It is large - 60" x 48" - Oil on Canvas. It is part of the Museum of Bad Judgement series. I like to imagine that this is the same girl who appeared in this painting I did in 1995. Later that year, it was used for the cover of my friend, Joel's first album.
Joel's music is haunting, and beautiful. And seems to fit this time perfectly, even though he created it so long ago. I have lost touch with my friend, but my hope is that he is still creating and making his music.
Here is the first song, and one of my favorites from that album. And this one - OK Reno - the penny whistle at the end will break your heart. You can find a ton of other music by Joel R.L. Phelps over at Bandcamp.com. Something that has occurred to me over these past couple of months: A large percentage of the work I create is not going to make it out of the studio, and some of it will just be plain bad. The good news is, work creates work, and every so often, something will come out that is beautiful and haunting, and tells me a story that makes me think of more stories. That keeps me going.  New painting in progress - oil on canvas 60" x 48" started in mid February 2020. Its got a ways to go. This will change us.In November of 2019, I made the decision to quit my very stable job with the state of Washington, and pursue my painting full time. Being anxious by nature, it was a difficult decision, illustrated by the fact that I didn't actually end up leaving my job until February 10, 2020.
Besides having a very supportive partner, who encouraged me and is making it possible for me to do this financially, it came down to me saying to myself "If not now, when?" At 51 ½ years old, it is finally clear to me that my obsession with painting is a gift, and it is what I really need to be doing with my time. So, I stepped into this new chapter, leaving a lot up to chance (and by "a lot", I mostly mean, how I am going to make money). Needless to say, none of it has unfolded as I had pictured it. My original plan when I quit was to hide out and go deep in the studio for a few months, and follow where that path is leading. That plan hasn't really changed, but with the pandemic everything else has changed. We are extremely lucky to have a home to stay in, and my out of state parents have people coming in to help them out, so I am grateful for that. I keep asking the universe how I can help in all of this, and every day, I end up back in the studio, in my backyard. But I keep asking. I am realizing that pursuing my painting is more important than ever. It is like an anchor that I never knew I had. It has been difficult to paint with all my worried thoughts running through my head, so I paint in shorter blocks of time. But I keep showing up, and painting through the difficulty. I don't know what will happen, but I know this will change us. I am going to keep showing up for this mystery, and help where I can.  A New Series of Paintings is Currently on View at Brooks Dental Studio in Downtown TacomaThe ideas for the paintings in this series grew from a memoir written by Bruce Spaulding (my grandfather) in 1983, entitled Some Interesting Criminal Cases I Have Tried. He died in 1990, and I discovered this unpublished memoir many years later. He was an attorney in several towns in Oregon starting in 1930. His memoir covers eight murder cases between the 1930’s and 1960’s. His writing about these cases and the people and circumstances involved is unusually visual and detailed. In addition to the memoir, I have several of the case files, as well as newspaper clippings and other ephemera related to the cases. These stories and the pieces of evidence evoke vivid images for me that I am using as source materials for this series of paintings. I am not painting or recreating murder scenes, but instead drawing on my own visions of the people, places and things surrounding these stories. Some of the larger themes I am exploring are turning points and decisions, memory and loss. My grandfather began losing his memory to dementia shortly after he wrote down these stories, and most of the people involved, I assume, are dead. To start the series I had to narrow my focus, so I could concentrate on my approach to each painting, otherwise I knew I would be all over the place. I decided to pick four cases, and paint 3 paintings per case. (One large, and two smaller) Reining myself in helped me concentrate, and really connect deeply with what was going on in each painting.  Columbia Edgewater; Oil on Canvas; 2019. Part of the Museum of Bad Judgement Series. Here are brief summaries of the four cases that I am currently working with. I'm not sure if knowing about these cases add to the experience of seeing these paintings, because they definitely stand on their own. Also, there is so much more to these stories than I am sharing here, but these are the basic facts. State vs. Richard Layton (This case took place in 1943, when my grandfather was the District Attorney in Polk County, OR. He was the prosecutor in this case. I recently went to the Polk County Courthouse in Dallas, Oregon, and I imagine it is much the same as it was back when he tried this case. ) Richard Layton was the chief of police of Monmoth, OR, and was accused of raping and murdering a girl named Ruth Hildebrand in 1943. My grandfather won a conviction in this case, and Layton was later executed. State vs. Marjorie Smith. In 1955, Kermit Smith was murdered when his car exploded in the parking lot of the Columbia Edgewater Country Club in Portland. My grandfather defended his wife, Marjorie Smith, who was accused of hiring a man to place dynamite in his car. It was a sensational case, and was followed by national press. My grandfather won an acquittal for Marjorie smith. State vs. Vera Rossa Vera Rossa was accused of murdering her husband by poisoning him in 1965. The couple were in a terrible car accident on the road between The Dalles to Portland, when Arthur Rossa had a heart attack and lost control of the car. He died that day, and the DA accused Vera Rossa of staging the accident to hide the fact that she had poisoned her husband. My grandfather defended her, and she was acquitted as well. State vs. Robert Sproul This case took place in the John Day country in Central Oregon in 1958. I haven't started these paintings yet. Before I do, I am going to make at trip out there for research. Robert “Bobby” Sproul was on trial for shooting his brother-in-law Link Williams in a stand off over a property line between their two farms. My grandfather defended Bobby and he was acquitted. It was also a very sensational case and was treated like an old fashioned, western “high-noon” shoot-out by the national press. As I work on the paintings in this series, my imagination moves to the people involved and what they were going through, the houses and buildings - the smaller parts of the stories. In a way, I am inviting these long dead characters, into the very current, living world of my paintings. It’s a series about connecting my imagination to real evidence and true stories. Why Bad Judgement? Because that is the common thread that runs through all these particular stories, and so many others. Realizing this has opened me up creatively as this project has evolved. To me, my Museum of Bad Judgement is about these stories of murder, denial and mistakes from the last century, but everyone has their own thoughts about what their Museum of Bad Judgement could be. I hope it helps people let their curiosity lead them as they experience these strange paintings. The first group of these paintings are on view now in the beautiful space at: Brooks Dental Studio 732 Broadway - Tacoma, WA 98402. Please join us for the Artist Reception on Thursday, January 16, 2020 5pm - 7pm. I hope to see you there!  Me and my grandfather, Bruce Spaulding, in 1970.  Tacoma Studio Tour - This weekend 10/12 & 13...and by limited, I mean you can count the edition on one hand. I made archival Giclee prints of 4 of my paintings this year, and they turned out so great. The colors are very close to the originals, and I am really pleased with them. They are $150 each, unframed. I have some framed in simple black wood frames, and those are $295. Paintings are also for sale, and are priced individually. I hope you can stop by for the Studio Tour. My studio is #1 on the map on the Tacoma Arts Month website here. I will be open both Saturday and Sunday form 11am -5pm.  Two framed prints hanging on the wall of my studio.  New painting from the Museum of Bad Judgement series. Tacoma Studio Tour Coming October 12 and 13It's almost October and almost time for the 2019 Tacoma Studio Tour. We had a blast last year, so we are doing it again this year. My studio will be open both Saturday and Sunday from 11:00 - 5:00 PM. We will be making collage postcards again. You make the postcard, and address it. We will stamp it and mail it for you. So think of someone you are secretly (or not so secretly) admiring, and make them something at my studio! I am #1 on the map of all the studios. Also, I am creating a little painting on glass for the passport prize, which will go to some lucky person who manages to visit 7 studios. Find out more about tour, the passport prize and the other incredible Tacoma artists opening their studios here. I have a bunch of new paintings that are all part of a far-out series called The Museum of Bad Judgement. They are a collaboration with my grandfather who died long before I began these paintings. It's kind of a long story, and it's late. You just gotta see them, and I will tell you the whole story. OR, I will write more about it here... stay tuned.  The beginning stages of my little painting on glass for the passport prize!  Just in time for Valentines Day.....Happy New Year and I can't believe it is February already. I have been working in the studio in some new larger paintings, which I am excited about, but I have also set up a new STORE on my website!
Right now the purpose of this store is to sell some beautiful (very) limited edition Giclee prints of four of the paintings I made in 2018. This is new for me. I have never made or sold prints of my paintings before, and I am really blown away by how good these prints turned out. They are on a matte paper, with either a 1/2 " border, or a 1/4" border. The color is very, very rich, and they really look beautiful. So, please head on over to the store and check out these new prints. Of course I have paintings for sale too, but they are not in the store right now. If you are interested in purchasing a painting, or have any questions about the prints or anything, please contact me, and we can talk. I don't know what life in 2019 will bring, but I am trying to stay close to the studio, and get as much out from my head and my heart as I possibly can. It will be an adventure, that's all I know.  Rickreall Creek, Oil on Canvas - 2018 Open Studio Tour in Tacoma - 10/13 and 10/14I feel lucky to have landed in Tacoma at this stage of my life. The city and community really values artists, and the town is packed with great artists. There is a relaxed energy, friendliness and beauty here, which is inspiring a lot of creative energy in me these days. It is a great place to make paintings, which is really all I have ever wanted to do. Plus I have an amazing little studio. I am super grateful to live where I do...
ANYWAY....October is Tacoma Arts Month, and I am really excited that my studio is going to be part of the Tacoma Studio Tour! Its happening October 13 and 14, and my studio will be open 11 - 5 both Saturday and Sunday. Click HERE to find out more the tour, location, details etc. My studio is #1 on the map. As you can see on the map, the studio is a little removed from the cluster of other studios, but don't let that scare you. It's really not that far and it is easy to find. Please contact me if you have any questions about getting here. As a hands on activity, we will be writing and/or making postcards to send to anyone you want. I will provide the stamps, postcards (I have hundreds of old, unused postcards) and clip art. You provide the thoughts, the message and the address. I donated a small piece of art for the passport drawing. If you visit 7 studios on the tour, and turn in your passport, you are entered to win a fabulous prize. I haven't ever really done anything like this Studio Tour before, because I have never really had a studio before! Not alot of people see my work in progress. I am excited ( and a little nervous, of course) to share it. I absolutely love painting, and being in my studio, and I am interested to see what it will be like to share that with friends and soon-to-be friends. I think it will be a blast. Come on over! Lets look at old postcards, listen to records and talk about art! Since I moved into the studio in December, I have been spending as much time as I possibly can in there. I love it so much in there. It's just a magical place where I can get really quiet, or listen to my music really loud, and just be with all my painting gear, etc. and go deep...... The results of all that time spent in there are a few new completed paintings that I am really happy with, plus the start of a really cool new series project. ( More about that in a later post....) . Those completed paintings, (along with a couple older ones) are going up at Walter's Cafe in Ballard for the month of August. Walter's is located at 6408 32nd Ave NW- Seattle, WA 98107. We will be having an opening there on Friday, August 3rd 6-8pm. It's a funky neighborhood place that serves great coffee, ice cream, beer etc. It's tiny, but we can take over the sidewalk, like we did last year. Come on by and say hi! I am really grateful to have the opportunity to share my work at Walter's again this year. Also - Save the date. I will be participating in the Tacoma Studio Tour on 10/13 and 10/14 as part of Tacoma Arts Month. I am really excited, but I don't have too many details yet. I will be posting more, as I learn more. Come out and see my studio, plus many other great artist's studios all over Tacoma. Below are progress photos and the finished painting titled 14 Kids. It is acrylic on an old board. 24.5" x 20.5"   I haven't written here since the studio has been finished....because I have been working in there. Come and find me there. If I am not working at my day job, or sleeping, chances are I am there. Here are some photos... |
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